I just needed to run, to just release some frustration, I needed some space.

I never believe anyone would walk away with a smile on their face with an injury to hold onto. A person's face would cringe when in pain, from no pain to a pain that is present or when an injury makes it way back. For an athlete to have an injury to hold, is a duty that they would not want to ever do in any part of their life. Let's face it, every athlete holds a fear in getting injured because it only meant that their chances of further participation in their respective sport would be reduced or not be there for weeks/months or that they would have a dimmer chance to be on the playing field/ground, until they fully recover. Depending on the injury, each athlete works hard during the recovery process, hoping to show that they're still worthy of a spot in the team, still worthy of a shot at a medal in any competition. Any set back would always be worrying for the athlete. In no way at all, an athlete would want to be held back on their way to full recovery, or even, get injured in the first place.

I ever do worry whenever the injury bites back. It gets me thinking how often would this happen and for how long would it disappear before striking again. We always hope for the best because in each athlete, everyone wants to get their chance to shine, to show their Coach just how truly deserving they are of getting a place in the team. No one wants to be on the not-selected list or be the d-listed.

I really have plenty to say and I had and still have plenty of thoughts running in my mind, just too many to even list here. As I type right now, the thoughts are overflowing but I can hardly remember what I want to really type in here.

Anyway back on track, it's not that I have given up totally. I pushed myself to the limit and I tried despite what happened. I told myself that I have to complete those obstacles, no matter what, no matter how. I agree it's hard to when you completely run out of oxygen or of steam. But if you do put in the effort to do well, you wouldn't even think that you're out of oxygen. I ever said this - it's hard sometimes but if you don't even try, it gets even harder. To be honest, I did pause at certain moments and I was scared to push further because I felt that I was pushing over the limits.

It's heart warming to have team mates who say that they understand how it feels like to be in your situation as such, to be honest. It's like playing reverse psychology. However, the view/perception is different compared to a player/athlete who has been watching the game from the sidelines. It's just like comparing a pov of a (e.g) consumer who has used dove shampoo for as long as she lived versus a consumer who has only used dove shampoo for about 3 weeks. The long-life fan dove shampoo consumer might say that dove shampoo has done her hair jolly good while the 3 weeks fan dove shampoo consumer would be pessimistic and might still need more time before she could give a comment. You know, I don't really know how to really put this right but this is my take on this.

I've pretty much type what I want to type so .. the entry ends here tonight. It's getting past midnight and I should get some late sleep.

Keep Fighting,
Marj